God's plan: he provides reassurance

Today I received the best call! I was on my way home from singing in the choir. During choir pastor (uncle) Tim prayed that we would make the lyrics real in our life. "all my ambitions and all my plans, I surrender to you". Tim said, "we can make plans and design our future, and they can be good things. But they may not be God's plan and future." I do believe in Gods plan in my life, and I have been thinking alot about our future. We had it all planned out, but we have been on hold for quite sometime now. However, in the mean time I try to believe we are living out God's bigger and better plan. That plan includes being foster parents. Last year we had two children (age 2 and 4) that lived with us for 2 1/2 months. I connected with them more than any other children we have had. I even had the opportunity to visit them a few times after they left to live with their Grandmother. I loved these children. I was not suprised that when they went to live with their mother I did not hear from them any more. I don't blame her. It is only human to want to be the only mother to her children. Lately I have been wondering if I make a difference as a foster parent. I have been wondering if any day now I will get a call to take the children back, because their mother has relapsed into drugs again. I have missed them. I wondered if they missed me. So on the way home from choir I received an unknown phone call. I person answered with a childish girl voice and asked for Jason. I thought it was some wierd prank or telamarketer. Then it clicked. It was Jaycee! I had almost hung up on her. When I realized it was her I said, "Jaycee is that you? It's Krystal" She asked, "You remember me?" I replied, "Of course I do. I miss you, and I think about you all the time. " We talked about her new apartment, and her fish that died. She was excited for kindergarten next year, and she asked when I was going to come pick her up to go do fun things with her and Roman. I told her that it was up to her mommy if I can come pick her up. I spoke to her mother, and she sounded better than ever. She told me that they were living in an apt designed to help provide her with the support she needed. She said that the kids were finally starting to feel like it is home. I heard Roman crying in the background asking for a sandwhich. I could almost see that sweet boys face, and I longed to hold him in my arms. The mother told me that Jaycee had found the photo album I had made for her and my phone number in the back. She told me that Jaycee talks about me almost every day. Then she said that she would have Jaycee call me in a couple days, and that was the end of the conversation. It was amazing. I cried the whole way home, and called my mom to tell her the story. It was a huge reminder from God that he has a plan for me, and part of this plan was to help these children. It wasn't a failure, and these children can make it. I pray that they will call again soon, and that I can regain the ability to mentor these sweet children.