Monday, April 27, 2009
Our Instant Family
Upon the first date of respite Grandma was nervous. She wasn't sure how he would do with us, and if we were up for it. However, she realized on this day that we were Christains. She then said, "Oh, now I can relax, because I know he is in a good Christian home." She ended up sleeping in until 10 am the next morning because of the peace that was upon her. He trived in our home, and I this is where I first thought that maybe she would ask us to adopt him.
Over the next few weeks Grandma and I talked and she began to ask many questions that no other relative had asked us before. Such as... "How long have you been married? and Who is the softee?" I kept preparing Jason. I think she may be trying to tell me something. HOwever, I didn't want to offer to adopt him and offend her in the process. So I prayed about it, and waited for God's timing.
Last week Grandma called me and was particularily upset with the huge task of motherhood at 57. I comforted her tears, and listened to her concerns. She told me that she was going to postpone the adoption. She also said that the county suggested placing him back in foster care and allowing her to just be Grandma. She did not think this was a good idea. I thought,"ok Lord, this must be my door". I then told her that Jason and I would be willing to adopt him, and allow her to remain in his life as well. She burst into more tears and said, " I was praying that the Lord would place this on your heart." Without coming to a firm decision we ended the conversation. However, by the next day she called me and told me that she felt at peace, and that God had brought this all together. She made plans to tell the social worker, and I made plans to dive in deep with the Lord and with Jason. Jason and I stayed up late discussing our fears and excitement. Within days the Lord placed peace and gratitude in our hearts, and allowed us to begin celebrating with sheer joy.
Last Friday Grandma told the social worker about our plans. The Lord's favor shined again. The social worker was thrilled. She wanted to move quickly to transition our little boy into our home over the next 6 weeks ( I was anticipating months). We will meet with her next week to set up the plans.
This weekend our parents will be introduced to our little boy. The anticipation of Friday is almost unbearable. I can't wait to introduce him to our family. I especially can't wait to hold him in my arms for the first time and know that he is my son. NOt just a boy who will stay for awhile and leave again. He will be our forever child, and we will be his forever home.
(As soon as I know it is legal to post his name I will)
11 weeks 6 days

I am still eating to get by. Not much sounds good. I have days that I think I am over the all day nausea, and then it comes back again. I am hoping that 12 weeks (tomorrow) is the magic date to eliviate the first trimester symptoms.
On Friday we will go see our OBGYN to hear the babies heartbeat for the first time!
Monday, April 6, 2009
8 Weeks 5 days

Thursday, March 26, 2009
March 26th

Since the ultrasound I have experienced many changes. I definitely feel pregnant. I yawn all day long and welcome any naps I can get. I have mild to moderate nausea throughout the day but no vomiting so far. I am glad, because I am able to continue traveling for work. I have troubles deciding what foods sounds good to me. I do know that things like red meat and fish sound gross just thinking about it. I enjoy eating bland cereals, milkshakes, pasta, and fruit. I haven't gained any weight, but I am sure that will change soon. We had a fabulous trip to Florida. I was able to get lots of rest, relaxation and time in the sun. I was even able to enjoy crab legs before seafood became a food I now detest. It was fun talking to my mom and Nina about what they remember from their pregnancies and deliveries.
On Monday we go back to our reproductive endocrinologist for an 8 week ultrasound. I think we will also be able to hear the heartbeat.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
My Visit to Jason & Krystal's
Thursday night came and went, and the three of us had a nice, relaxing evening at home. And so it was Friday morning. I woke up to see Krystal only for a little while before she went to her business luncheon. It didn't even occur to me that she had already been to the doctor. I would soon find out the results of the second lab test, just as Jason did. I was doing homework on the table as Krystal called up to Jason to help her with some boxes. He went. Completely oblivious to what could possibly be going on, Jason repeated to me the same request after a little time had past. So down the stairs I went and out the garage door to see a tiny bear with a bib around his neck that read 'I Love Daddy,' and balloons wrapped around it's collar. I was confused and shocked as I teared up. This was the miracle Jason was talking about earlier. It truly was. I was so proud of Jason and Krystal for all their strength and courage. God definitely saw their struggle and decided it was over. Off to Iowa we were!
And now the fun begins....Never being a parent myself, I had no idea how much fun it was going to be to tell the parents that they were going to be grandparents!! What an adrenaline rush. The entire drive down to Roger and Soni's was filled with planning and plotting on how to surprise them. Fortunately for us Roger and Soni always find their way to a bar and restaurant every Friday night for a slice of pizza. This would be the location. The plan: Have the waitress bring Roger and Soni each a bear with a bib that said, 'I Love Grandpa, and I Love Grandma.' What a shock that would be. The action: First, we called Roger and Soni's house, twice from my cell, to see if they were out. Second, we called the restaurant to get them in on the idea. Then, we drove through the parking lot to make sure their car was definitely there. So far so good. We entered the bar side first and meet up with the manager, who we previously talked to. We also talked to the waitress and told her what to do. Everything was a go until the waitress came back and shared with us that Soni was up talking to someone she knew. And then the wait....The three of us stood at the bar and waited for the waitress to come back and tell us that Soni sat down. We waited some more...It seemed like it was hours later (it was probably only about 15 minutes) when the waitress finally came back and said ok. We did have to hurry this by having the manager tell Soni her food was ready (hehe). And the rest is history....caught on tape...(the video starts out sideways)
And now for the other parents....My mom and dad had been planning on coming Saturday night and staying at Jason and Krystal's also. Since we stayed the night in Forest City we needed to make an excuse to make sure that they didn't arrive before we had a chance to get back and get situated. So Friday night on the way back to Roger and Soni's house I called my mom to ask when her and dad were planning on heading out on Saturday. She said she was thinking around noon or so but wasn't certain and that they could leave later if need be. Well watching the weather lately there had been some talk about snow in the Twin City area, we ran with that idea! So I told my mom that we had heard the snow was gonna hit the Ramsey area around 2 p.m. so they should definitely plan on leaving at noon in order to get there around 1:30. She agreed. The timing was set. Saturday morning we got up and hit the road around 10:30 and made it back by 12:40 after a quick trip to target to get some more bibs and bears! On this road trip was when we brainstormed ideas as well. Jason came up with a "fool proof" plan, but Krystal and I decided that it was actually just boring.
The plan decided on: Decorate the garage with streamers and signs so that when they open it we can be standing inside. As we got closer Jason called mom to see where they were at so we could approximate how much time we would have to decorate the garage. He ended the call by telling them to come in through the garage door. It turned out we didn't have a huge amount of time, or so we thought! The action: First, we moved the cars so everything was wide and open to see. Second, blue and pink streamers were torn and taped to anywhere we thought necessary. Then, I wrote out two big signs, 'LAB WAS WRONG and WE -R- PREGNANT!' Next Jason set up the two puppies (Target didn't have anymore bears) in their 'Grandma and Grandpa' bibs on the trunk of the car. Finally, with time drawing close we began the wait. And wait. And wait. (I bet if they would have known what we were planning to tell them both sets of parents probably wouldn't have made us wait!) That was tough! About 20 minutes longer than they said they were going to be and different ideas from all of us of what happened, "they stopped to eat, the car broke down, they weren't even in Buffalo..." Jason looking through the peep hole and me at the top of the steps through the window saw them pull in. We ran into the garage and the camera began rolling...
Jason and Krystal,
Thanks for letting me be apart of a very special weekend. I love you two! Congratulations!
Love, Lindsay
Friday March 6th
(Meanwhile, Jason called my mom. He shared the bad news and said, "It would take a miracle to be positive today.")
Nurse Patty asked me where I was as though she was preparing me for more bad news. I told her I was in a parking lot, but it didn't matter. She then began to tell me, "Well there was something wrong with the lab machine on Wednesday. Your results were not accurate. In fact, your beta was 134 on Wednesday and it is 284 today. You are pregnant. These are nice healthy numbers for a singleton. I am sorry about the lab. The machine..." I interrupted her and said, "I don't care! All I care about is the real results. Oh my! I believe in miracles!" I began to cry out in total joy. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Patty went on to explain future appointments and what medications I should keep taking. I was so overwhelmed. Finally she said, "Are you listening to me?" I replied in tears, "NO!". She told me to call her later if I had any questions. I proceeded to sit through my 2 hour business lunch completely distracted. I was dreaming about how I would tell Jason the news. Afterwards I raced through traffic to the party store and target. I picked up a teddy bear and placed a bib around his neck that said, "I Love Daddy." I got pink and blue balloons and a mylar balloon of a baby that I attached to the bear. I could not get home fast enough. I had never felt adrenaline like that!
I pulled in the garage and placed the bear and balloons on the hood of my car. I hollered into the house, "Jason, will you come help me bring in some boxes?" He came down the stairs and started telling me a story. I interrupted him and told him we could talk after we brought the boxes inside. He opened the door and immediately saw my surprise. His eyes went wide and his jaw dropped. Tears welled up in his eyes and he said, "Are you kidding me." I told him that the lab was wrong and that we are pregant. The rest is blurry. Hugs, kissed, tears, rejoicing!
We then suprised Jason's sister Lindsay, who was visiting us, by asking her to also come help with the boxes. She too was shocked and looked very confused. Immediately we packed up and headed to Iowa to tell my parents. Lindsay will be blogging later to share her thoughts and the videos of when we suprised our parents.
Wednesday March 4th
By Thursday I was feeling better or perhaps I was just trying to avoid feeling. I looked at the pictures of our embryo babies on the frig and I was tempted to throw the pictures away. I decided not to. I chose to hang on to the small hope that they may still have a chance. I absorbed myself in work and booked several business trips for the month. I had moderate menstrual cramps that night, and I thought to myself, "well I might as well get my period over with". But I didn't get my period. I didn't really want to set my alarm to get up early again to drive to the doctor for the final pregnancy test, but I did it anyways.